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| I am up. Its raining outsude. It feels good to wake up in the morning and hear rain outside your place. It relaxing you. I don't know if Franklin will still get the battery out of the van or not but if he does I hope he waits til after it stops raining. I had wanted to get up early and start on everything but the rain didn't let me. I like the rain. I have a few things to do today and I hope the rain doesn't stop me. I will let you know. | | |
| Yesterday was a long day. I have not been getting much sleep. I stay up most of the night, sleep the morning away and then feel sick the rest of the time. I only have hicks contractions at night. They hurt badly. I am praying that I go into labor soon. I am getting to the point I want my baby here and playing the waitting game isn't working. I want her here so I can love her and show her off. And so I can get some sleep. On the other hand, I have some bad news... My little brother got his girlfriend pregnant and they are talking about killing the baby. She is about four to five weeks long. They have not been to a doctor yet. Just two home test is what they are going by. He called my mom for money to kill the baby and then called me for money so they could kill the baby. I am not going to help them take a life. Only God has that right and I am not God. I do not support it and I am not going to. I am not going to play a part in killing a baby. The baby should live. Only God should say if it should live or die. I am not going to help. I don't believe in killing a baby. I was raised better. So was he and look at him. I can't believe he is thinking about doing it and is going to. I am so upset over it and my heart is in so much pain. What to do? I have no clue how to feel. I need to go before I start to cry. | | |
| Today has been an off day. I found out what is causing all the pain. It is some kind hicks contractions that you get before going into labor, some days to weeks before labor. Also known as false labor. After that the Van broke down on Franklin and the truck has been broke down for a few days. Plus I got news that my little 18 year old brother got his girlfriend pregnant and he has to leave her house and go back to Mississippi bc her parents don't want him around now. He can't come back here. What to do? How to feel and deal with it? God is great, he has been here with us and helping us. I am not sure what to say about it all. I know that God will handle it and his will has to be done. I know he will help me. Well, I need to go. | | |
| I didn't go to church today. I wan't to happy about that but with the pain I was in it was for the best. Mom came over and stayed with me so I didn't have to be home alone. Its great to have a family that cares and loves you. ITs been sometime since I have had a real family. My grandma and dad was all I had growing up and after my grandma passed away things messed up. Now my father and her both are gone. When my dad passed away I thaught that no one would be able to fill that whole of not having a family. My real mom was never there for me and when she was around she was putting my father and grandma down or talking about being with men. Not a mom at all. The only family I really ever had was just my grandma, dad and the kids. Now I am married into a family that loves each other and is there. Franklin and his sisters and brother has never been part of a broken home and I love that. His mom and dad gives me hope for a life that I once only could see in my dreams. They show people that there is still a God and he can hold a marriage together no matter what. Its great. Soon my daugther will be here and she will grow up knowing God and how a marriage and life should be. She will have grandparents that desire to be looked up to and loved. Its great knowing that. Knowing that she won't have to be hurt and left all alone. Well I need to go to bed I will write more later. | | |
| I don't feel good. Last night before bed I was in a low sugar spell, well, almost low my sugar was 76 and trying to drop. I took care of it. Now it is 151 and that is good. Around the time my sugar was low I was in pain. I know it wasn't labor pain or anything but it hurt badly. My back was hurting and so was right under my belly. It hurt so bad that I almost hurt Frank everything I put my hand on him to hold onto something. I was in pain and I still am. Now I feel so sick cick. Like everything wants to come up but won't. My body is still in pain in areas and I like the room is moving a little and so weak feeling. I just feel bad right now. I don't feel good at all. My feet hurt and my heard. There is places on my body I didn't know could hurt that are hurting and Lee-Ann is awake moving. Just three more weeks and she will be here and hopefully my body can stop hurting so bad. I need sleep but I can't sleep. I want to go to sleep but can't. I want to feel better. | | |
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